"Jesus, Lord, thank you for this food we are about to receive, thank you for everything you've been doing, your about to do, may you please allow mother nature have some mercy on me this month, we love you, Amen."

you know...I really hate being a girl. Just. Point Blank. I really do. I mean ^^^^^^I meant it. May he please Please PLEASE allow Mother Nature to have some mercy on me this month.

We're all h o m e s i c k. Is love the reason?

So, I think I like you. We have a lot in common. We could make it work. But would i let it? Could i? To move on? Doubt it.

I never knew making a new friend could be so hard. I honestly didn't. I feel so uncomfortable around you. I don't know why. I know what your feeling, and its only making this harder. I don't know how, or if we can continue this. I guess, if you want to...I will give it a shot. But know, there is no chance of "lovers". goodbye.

You know what I was thinking about the other day? That, its been over a month since we've seen one another, since i gave you that thing, and I have yet to hear one word about it. It was my goodbye to you. It took me months to do. Every time I added on to it, thought about it, and finally, when I gave it to you, I cried. and I have yet to hear an "it was beautiful." It made me cry. I love you. Kiss my ass, or anything. It just. It hurts. I'm sorry. I love you.

I'm sorry. I will try harder. ok? But you too, need to understand this is just as hard for me, as it is for you. So I apologize. And yes...this one is for you. =]

I'm sorry. Please know I am. I miss you  more than anything. You are my everything. And I just. I'm sorry. I hate theses circles and squares. Ignore the circles, never mind them, but the triangles. I just. I'm sorry. I miss home. I miss the smell of my rug. The color of my walls. Our wall. That, popping sound the rug made when you stepped in curtain places, and how I had the house memorized. it was my home. I'm sorry. I love you. I have everything I could ever want or needing you. =] Maybe i just need to place a little more trust in you. I can do you. You just watch. Sorry. I know you hate that...but this timeits good.

As much as I hold you togetheryou know..I know so little about you. Is that my fault? or yours? Or that, you'r losing everyone, but I'm right here. I know I may not amount to much. and you are convincing yourself I'm more then what I'm worth, but I guess thats a fault on your part?

I gotta pee.

sorry. haha. Woooo.

so yeah. ok.

hm

I don't know. I've been writing a lot lately, but with no joys to share with anyone. Does anyone care? I meanlike..I tried to show him. He thought nothing of it. Hes just stopped writing, which upsets me, cause I loved when he wrote. I wish he would write to me. For me. Something. But oh well. And she,was like kinda like. pretty. Nice. OOO. AAAA. Laaa. And like. grrr. I don't know. I'm tired. I'm gunna try and relax. My stomach and cramps are getting bad again. And I'm still in the heachachemaybe maybe no migrain, so. yeah. Love yas.

Call or text? that would be grand.

Yay for church in the morning. ::dances:: I could really use it.